“…I would like to beg you dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.” -Rainer Maria Rilke, 1903 in Letters to a Young Poet.
Man, I wish I had run across this quote last year. I think much suffering, anxiety, and confusion would have been spared in 2012. When I focused on the past and all that had been built, all that could be lost, I grasped and held on tightly out of fear. When I focused on the future on all the possibilities that could be, I stood frozen in anxiety.
Practicing yoga has helped me shift gears. Yoga has been helping me build courage and confidence and focus on the here and now- on the present. When I catch myself reminiscing in the past or anxiously anticipating the future, I reel myself in by bringing attention back to my breath, connecting to the area right below my heart above my upper belly. Where do I recognize Love in this scenario? Can I drink in this very moment just as it is without fear or judgement?
Sometimes when I encounter discomfort and major change, I catch myself running back to comfort and security or seeking an outlet where I can detach and numb myself. What do I fear the most? Why do I feel that way? Where do I feel tightness in my body? If I direct slow deep breaths in that area, how does that help?
Life has been unfolding answers as I remain open with curiosity and courage. The answers and signs seem to appear and re-appear until I am ready to open my eyes, digest lessons and embrace the experiences.